Two Z's
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Men are terrible at communication, at least according to conventional wisdom. They repress their feelings and avoid honest conversations, putting on a brave face out of some sense of masculine obligation. This is especially true when fathers and sons are involved (just read Shakespeare if you need some examples – wow).

My family life is not nearly that dramatic, thankfully. My father has a reputation for being demanding and serious – in his business career he had to battle some tough people – but I know better. He’s actually funny, spontaneous, and warm. I like to think I am too (well, maybe the funny part at least).

And yet we both exhibit some of those typical male traits: short conversations, a focus on the practical parts of life, and a preference for efficiency over emotion. That means flying, something we both love to do, is much more than just a weekend hobby. It’s our version of playing catch in the back yard, a shared experience laden with meaning. When my dad says, “let’s go flying,” what I really hear is, “I love you.”

Of course we do talk when we fly. In the cockpit, there’s a steady dialogue as we run checklists, review the weather, and try our best to fly like an airline crew. When we’re not busy, we joke and tell stories about memorable flights. But I’ve realized the most important words between father and son are often unspoken.

Two Z's

Captain Zimmerman, assisted by First Officer Zimmerman.

This realization hit me quite powerfully on a flight together in a Pilatus PC-12 a few years ago. On this day the weather was interesting: a 500 ft. overcast and 1 mile of visibility with moderate rain. As the SiriusXM radar picture loaded, I pointed to the colorful screen and joked, “Looks like we get a free airplane wash today.”

In my head the conversation was a little different: This is gonna be intense. Hope our passengers are buckled in. I know what we’re about to do is safe – just another day at the office really – but there’s still something about the moment before takeoff into serious weather that gets my heart rate up.

“Just rain; nothing convective,” he said. “A few bumps and we’ll be on top by 10,000 feet.”

My grip loosens just a bit. Now I know we’ve got this. I read the same weather forecast and reached the same conclusion, but when both pilots are in sync everything seems a little easier. He trusts me completely and I trust him completely; that feels awfully good.

It was my leg to fly left seat, so I was pilot in command. At the hold short line I was all business – nobody goes through life like a Hallmark movie and we had work to do. “Takeoff checklist.”

We ran through our standard pre-takeoff briefing (IFR clearance, minimum turnback altitude, emergency procedures), then we raced down the runway into the rain, my dad’s callouts crisp and professional: “Airspeed alive… 60 knot cross-check… 80 knots – rotate… positive rate.”

This sure is more fun with him in the right seat. It’s also safer and easier. We may be father and son, but we’re also a well-oiled machine in this airplane. Is Delta hiring?

After takeoff, ATC wanted us to turn right, intercept a radial, and climb to 10,000 feet. There were some stronger radar returns to the right, so before the controller was even done talking my dad was looking at me with a raised eyebrow. I shook my head twice. No words were spoken but the conversation was crystal clear: unable.

He may have 35 years and 10,000 hours on me, but right now I’m the PIC and he was nice enough to look my way before responding. I guess that’s respect. But then of course he would defer to me in the left seat – he taught me that bit of flight crew etiquette in the first place!

Our minds seemed to be operating as one, so his reply was just what I expected: “We need to maintain current heading for weather.”

“That’s approved. Direct KENLN when able,” the controller said obligingly.

My dad’s hands fly all over the panel – a new altitude in the preselect, a new active leg in the Garmin, a slight tilt down on the radar to check on that cell. Who said anything about old dogs and new tricks? This septuagenarian is on top of things. Now the respect is going in the other direction.

Sure enough, we broke out on top about 10,000 feet and left the drizzle below. After the checklist was complete and the power setting was fine-tuned, we settled in for a smooth flight. That doesn’t mean we were bored; he peppered me with questions about his iPad apps while we cruised along at FL230. “How do I update a flight plan after it has already been filed? Is Garmin Pilot showing base or composite reflectivity on the radar? Can I send a flight plan to the panel or only retrieve it from the panel?”

Jim Z by Citabria

When he teaches you how to land taildraggers, how can you not return the favor with some iPad instruction?

The student has become the master. After decades of soaking up his experience, learning how to land a taildragger and how to hot start a Continental engine, I’m returning the favor. I love his thirst for knowledge – after 50 years of flying, he’s still fascinated by aviation and humble enough to admit what he doesn’t know. I hope I can say that about myself in another 25 years.

After an hour, we started our descent. There were crossing restrictions to comply with, ATIS broadcasts to copy, and an arrival briefing to conduct. The relaxed conversation stopped and we were all business again. We don’t have a formal sterile cockpit rule, but we seem to observe one almost automatically. There’s no place for family dynamics on an RNAV arrival.

After a routine approach and a respectable landing in some fairly enthusiastic winds, my co-pilot offered his grade of the performance – never asked for but always desired: “Well done.”

A 10,000-word review in Flying magazine couldn’t mean more. We safely completed a challenging flight and did it as a team. On top of that, my aviation hero just told me I made a nice landing. I’ve made it – the pinnacle!

My reply was typically unemotional – “We’ll take it; after landing checklist please” – but I’m pretty sure the big smile betrayed my nonchalance.

Every son wants his father to respect him, especially when he grows up. Every father wants something too: to feel like he has made a difference. When you’re flying together, both of those seem to come naturally. After all, you’re together in a confined area, doing something that takes complete focus, with serious consequences if you do it wrong. That inevitably builds trust and stirs paternal pride.

Happy Father’s Day to all the flying dads out there, but especially to the intergenerational flight crews who say so much to each other simply by sharing the sky.

John Zimmerman
8 replies
  1. Mark Sletten
    Mark Sletten says:

    > …but there’s still something about the moment before takeoff into serious weather that gets my heart rate up.

    After I joined the USAF I bought a motorcycle. My dad had ridden one all his life, but I had never gotten the bug until I moved out. About a month after getting my new bike I rode it home to show Dad. He suggested a day trip together along a local scenic highway. As we were gearing up I told Dad I still had not gotten beyond that little feeling of trepidation about such a dangerous activity. He said, “Son, the day you don’t feel that anymore is the day you don’t throw your leg over that bike.”

    That was good advice that’s served me well. And yes, I still get those pre-ride butterflies. Thanks Dad.

  2. John Cotton
    John Cotton says:

    My father, a former Air Force pilot, was near the end of his life when I took up flying. Initially, I would send him pictures from the flights (as that view was a novelty to me) but what he really wanted was to discuss the details of the flights. He delighted in my sharing the struggles and successes of each flight in my training.

    While I never had the opportunity to fly with him while he was alive, I did carry out his final wish of having his ashes spread over the top of Mt. Washington, where he had spent many happy days climbing in his youth. Although the memory of that flight is bittersweet, will always remain one of my favorites.

    Thank you for this article, it brought back many happy memories. Happy Father’s Day.

  3. Rich
    Rich says:

    Great article, thanks!

    My dad passed when I was young before I got the flying bug. He let me try a lot of different things until I found my passion. One thing he taught me and is still with, always keep learning and strive to do things to your best. Good lessons for life, as well as flying.

    Happy Father’s Day to all the fathers out there.

  4. Tim Hacker
    Tim Hacker says:

    Your article hit a positive note on a special day of remembering my father and the gifts he gave me. Some of which was aviation, the love of flying and of just being aloft. Just about everything he did was centered around the use of an airplane, and he took me along every time he could. We didn’t talk much about life or relationships, but our common communication in aviation made a difference. Thanks for sharing your story.

  5. Edward B Ferrer
    Edward B Ferrer says:

    My father was a gold seal instructor. He taught me how to fly in 1967 when I was 15. He was an Eastern Airlines captain at the time flying 727’s. I soloed on what was then runway nine right at the Fort Lauderdale-Hollywood international airport, KFLL. He taught me through my private license and the steep learning curve of commercial licensure. Halfway through instruments training we hit the wall. I think I had hit a plateau after the intense previous 18 months and he was having none of it. I could not meet his exacting expectations. By the time I was 18 another instructor had carried me through finalization of my instruments training and the multi engine ratings. Dad taught me the fundamentals though and drilled that hand/eye muscle memory to a place somewhere deep in my central nervous system from where it can never be dislodged. I had the pleasure of flying with him frequently well into my 50s. He passed a few years ago. I still fly regularly and thank him as soon as the gear is up and I set climb power, marveling out the window at the miracle. I still try very hard whenever the occasion arises to fly the perfect crosswind approaches that he would fly holding the yoke with three fingertips with his left arm around me, upwind main squeaking perfectly tracking the centerline while passing on yet another fine point of a aviation which I should never ever forget. What a sublime gift he bequeathed to his son. Love you Dad.

  6. JimD
    JimD says:

    It was a VFR day and a long leg. Dad was in the right seat but I was flying. My Dad fell asleep. Under the circumstances it was a measure of trust. We had many conversations similar to the one you articulate. Totally resonating with you John.

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